( if her Peter Parker is anything like this one, she has to know how difficult that particular request is. he'll stammer until his voice fails him when he's nervous, or uncomfortable, or to cover up the fact he's falling apart all over again. doesn't matter that she's been gone a year, doesn't matter that he's tried to put her memory in a better place, so he can try and live without her. because she's there and the feelings come rushing back.
he might have tried for a comeback, but the breath he gives is trapped in his throat. okay, fine, no talking, because he probably couldn't manage it, now that he thinks about it. his face dips into her hair and he closes his eyes and he tries to focus on the fact that in some world, in some way, she makes it.
that doesn't erase the misery of losing her, of trying so hard and still ultimately failing. of being the one guilty of taking her away, even in his attempts to save her. yet when he pictures all the worlds where he apparently exists, and the likelihood that she's gone in all of them? it's sort of reassuring to know that in one, she makes it.
with a clearer head, maybe he'd realize she's reacting almost identical to he is. right about now, though, he's just glad to focus on her being there. )
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he might have tried for a comeback, but the breath he gives is trapped in his throat. okay, fine, no talking, because he probably couldn't manage it, now that he thinks about it. his face dips into her hair and he closes his eyes and he tries to focus on the fact that in some world, in some way, she makes it.
that doesn't erase the misery of losing her, of trying so hard and still ultimately failing. of being the one guilty of taking her away, even in his attempts to save her. yet when he pictures all the worlds where he apparently exists, and the likelihood that she's gone in all of them? it's sort of reassuring to know that in one, she makes it.
with a clearer head, maybe he'd realize she's reacting almost identical to he is. right about now, though, he's just glad to focus on her being there. )