Then I suppose we disagree on that count. What's the point in living if you've lost everything that makes you what you are? Everything that ever mattered to you?

[ALASTAIR may have halted the process for him,but the moment he returns to his own world he knows what fate awaits him. Would much rather die with some part of himself left in tact. Heine, Lily, all of them-- without his memories of them he has nothing at all!.]