[ There's just another long awkward pause in which she feels painfully torn and almost confused. All of her instincts are that people don't do this with her... and that Simon wouldn't jerk her around... and the opposing ideas are difficult to reconcile, and subsequently swallow.
It scares her how much she wants to have someone who actually cares about her, and at the same time risk losing it when he finds everything out all over again. Catherine isn't the type to keep secrets, despite what she's been doing. She knows it'll come out eventually. But it would be outright mean to deny him here, and she isn't mean, either. ]
I guess. If you want to. I don't know how it works.
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It scares her how much she wants to have someone who actually cares about her, and at the same time risk losing it when he finds everything out all over again. Catherine isn't the type to keep secrets, despite what she's been doing. She knows it'll come out eventually. But it would be outright mean to deny him here, and she isn't mean, either. ]
I guess. If you want to. I don't know how it works.