respired: might as well let it die (there's no relief in bitterness)
ᴋᴏʟᴛɪʀᴀ ·sᴜɴsʜɪɴᴇ· ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜᴡᴇᴀᴠᴇʀ ([personal profile] respired) wrote in [community profile] futurology2016-02-26 08:41 pm

video | un: deathweaver

[ Koltira's in the sunny courtyard, standing beneath one of the trees. Shadows and light play across his face, throwing the cold, icy glow of his eyes into stark relief. He's wearing greaves and boots, but only a plain, black tunic otherwise (and the skull-shaped ring that serves as his communicator). Byfrost, as ever, simmers darkly on his back.

He doesn't speak right away, as though he's suddenly lost his nerve. Truth be told, he's not sure how to begin this. The middle part is clear, and the end bit, too, but ... he exhales. ]


My name is Koltira Deathweaver, if you did not know it before. I have hurt a number of you directly, and in so doing, hurt others indirectly. Some of us have spoken, though not all. I will try now to explain myself.



[ He leans back against the tree, uncomfortable. ]

My second name is not a family name. It is an epithet, forced upon me as undeath itself was forced upon me.

[ He gestures to his eyes; his sallow, bluish, cracked skin. ]

I earned [ this word he spits, disgusted by it ] the epithet during long years of enslavement to a will that subsumed my own. The Lich King ordered my death; he remade me into one of his knights. And though I broke free, and though my brothers and sisters rose up against our former master, his mark on us remains.

[ He taps his foot on the grass. ]

We call it the endless hunger. It is a curse--of blood, of flesh, of whatever unholy foundation holds our wretched bodies together. Hunger is perhaps the best way for you to understand it, though it is not for any typical food. We were made to be machines for war. We were made to cause suffering. If we fail in this, we suffer ourselves.

The pain is ever present, albeit manageable. For a time. But if we--if I--do not give in to the hunger's demands, the pain grows. Worsens. It becomes wracking, all-encompassing.

[ He holds up his hand, curling his fingers slowly into a fist. ]

Imagine starving to death, and yet being unable to die. Your body is past its breaking point, but it does not break, because it cannot.

[ His nails dig into the palm of his hand. Black blood trickles down his wrist. ]

Instead, you break. As we do. If I ignore the hunger for too long, I descend into madness. A blood-seeking hysteria. Such was the state in which some of you found me.

I do not tell you this as an excuse. Only as an explanation. I deeply regret what I have done, and I am sorry. You need not forgive me. I do not expect such. If you would rather I keep my distance, I will honor this wish.

[ He pauses. ]

I wish I could end this by telling you that it will never happen again. But that would be a lie. It will. I cannot cure this curse. I can promise only this: when I feel the madness taking hold, I will give due warning. You will be able to spare yourselves, and you will know that if you see me--you must run.

[personal profile] babbylon 2016-02-27 05:08 am (UTC)(link)
To be determined.

[...really, Koltira couldn't have thought it would be that easy. Even without a visual one can practically imagine the coy little sneer that's just woven itself all across his face. But despite his tight-lippedness it's reasonable to say the price would be substantial.

After all, Gilgamesh was still considering slaughtering him in the street, just because he could and because the King of Heroes does not forgive so easily.]


Remember my name and remember my face. When that hunger approaches once more, pursue them. Then I will know you answer me in good faith.
anti_altruisms: (Look how many shits I give.)

[personal profile] anti_altruisms 2016-02-27 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
I do not ask for her permission in everything I do.

[ He isn't simply a 'yes man'. He does have a mind of his own, and he acts accordingly. ]

If she disapproves, I'll persuade her otherwise.

[personal profile] babbylon 2016-02-27 05:23 am (UTC)(link)
Only a King should suffer so well.

[There's no room for misinterpretation here. He's all but inviting it.]
anti_altruisms: (Whisper nevermore.)

[personal profile] anti_altruisms 2016-02-27 05:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ If you only knew, Koltira. He's done several things that would have gotten him scolded if only Rin knew. ]

Then, it's settled.

Contact me before something like that happens again.
perma_banned: (so you're saying)

video; username: baaaan

[personal profile] perma_banned 2016-02-27 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
Huuuh~. So, was your intent to get people to kill you?
originallutece: can you not hemorrhage for like ten minutes (neutral; ugh more blood)

voice; un: r.lutece

[personal profile] originallutece 2016-02-27 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
Well. Your honesty is refreshing, but it doesn't solve the key problem-- which, I can promise you, will likely become a problem again, no matter how careful you are. Surely there must be a way to "feed" yourself without hurting others.
selfimage: — ɢᴀʀʙᴇᴛᴛ — (Always crashing the same car.)

VOICE. UN: LOKI

[personal profile] selfimage 2016-02-27 12:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ there are no words.

just an over-dramatic sigh from this end.
]
adoube: (agite)

text @ happybirthday

[personal profile] adoube 2016-02-27 01:08 pm (UTC)(link)


You're Sack-of-Bones' friend........ so, don't be a pitiful person where he can see it (¬_¬) ¯\_ȌᴥȌ_/¯

ackingcraycray: (053)

voice, un: pugsnhugs618

[personal profile] ackingcraycray 2016-02-27 01:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Well this sounds terrible.

Have you ever considered an alternative method of coping? Allow me to suggest "Art Therapy." Perhaps you can color your murderous urges away!
defenceless: (coughs gil a ho)

voice, @Tohsaka Rin

[personal profile] defenceless 2016-02-27 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sure a wrought-iron babygate can be managed.
defenceless: (smirk)

voice, un: Tohsaka Rin just threadjacks and never talks directly to koltira

[personal profile] defenceless 2016-02-27 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I, for one, think art therapy is a fantastic potential route.
ackingcraycray: (049)

is that an elite form of shade

[personal profile] ackingcraycray 2016-02-27 02:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Exactly! Plus you get stuff to hang on your fridge after!
defenceless: (don't call me)

yes, let her teach mabel advanced shade maneuvers, the boys will come running

[personal profile] defenceless 2016-02-27 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmm, I don't know if Koltira has a fridge. He might be too "hardcore" for it. He likes to eat his meat raw, probably.
heavyhitter: in 45 seconds (i bet i could steal that car AND trash i)

[personal profile] heavyhitter 2016-02-27 06:59 pm (UTC)(link)
You think they sell those in Nalawoo or whatever?
heavyhitter: (but the queen is alive!)

[personal profile] heavyhitter 2016-02-27 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't worry, me and Tohsaka got it covered.

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