respired: might as well let it die (there's no relief in bitterness)
ᴋᴏʟᴛɪʀᴀ ·sᴜɴsʜɪɴᴇ· ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜᴡᴇᴀᴠᴇʀ ([personal profile] respired) wrote in [community profile] futurology2016-02-26 08:41 pm

video | un: deathweaver

[ Koltira's in the sunny courtyard, standing beneath one of the trees. Shadows and light play across his face, throwing the cold, icy glow of his eyes into stark relief. He's wearing greaves and boots, but only a plain, black tunic otherwise (and the skull-shaped ring that serves as his communicator). Byfrost, as ever, simmers darkly on his back.

He doesn't speak right away, as though he's suddenly lost his nerve. Truth be told, he's not sure how to begin this. The middle part is clear, and the end bit, too, but ... he exhales. ]


My name is Koltira Deathweaver, if you did not know it before. I have hurt a number of you directly, and in so doing, hurt others indirectly. Some of us have spoken, though not all. I will try now to explain myself.



[ He leans back against the tree, uncomfortable. ]

My second name is not a family name. It is an epithet, forced upon me as undeath itself was forced upon me.

[ He gestures to his eyes; his sallow, bluish, cracked skin. ]

I earned [ this word he spits, disgusted by it ] the epithet during long years of enslavement to a will that subsumed my own. The Lich King ordered my death; he remade me into one of his knights. And though I broke free, and though my brothers and sisters rose up against our former master, his mark on us remains.

[ He taps his foot on the grass. ]

We call it the endless hunger. It is a curse--of blood, of flesh, of whatever unholy foundation holds our wretched bodies together. Hunger is perhaps the best way for you to understand it, though it is not for any typical food. We were made to be machines for war. We were made to cause suffering. If we fail in this, we suffer ourselves.

The pain is ever present, albeit manageable. For a time. But if we--if I--do not give in to the hunger's demands, the pain grows. Worsens. It becomes wracking, all-encompassing.

[ He holds up his hand, curling his fingers slowly into a fist. ]

Imagine starving to death, and yet being unable to die. Your body is past its breaking point, but it does not break, because it cannot.

[ His nails dig into the palm of his hand. Black blood trickles down his wrist. ]

Instead, you break. As we do. If I ignore the hunger for too long, I descend into madness. A blood-seeking hysteria. Such was the state in which some of you found me.

I do not tell you this as an excuse. Only as an explanation. I deeply regret what I have done, and I am sorry. You need not forgive me. I do not expect such. If you would rather I keep my distance, I will honor this wish.

[ He pauses. ]

I wish I could end this by telling you that it will never happen again. But that would be a lie. It will. I cannot cure this curse. I can promise only this: when I feel the madness taking hold, I will give due warning. You will be able to spare yourselves, and you will know that if you see me--you must run.
perma_banned: (mostly shoulder)

[personal profile] perma_banned 2016-02-27 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Liar~. Nobody confesses like that without offering up their neeeck.
selfimage: — ɢᴀʀʙᴇᴛᴛ — (Fame '90.)

[personal profile] selfimage 2016-02-27 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
This is a rather long-winded apology. I'd be more inclined to take it if you offered me a drink.

I don't come cheap.
perma_banned: (s2 confirmed 2016)

[personal profile] perma_banned 2016-02-27 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Nah. Known criminals can still confess~.

Even I know what the word means.
Edited 2016-02-27 21:44 (UTC)
adoube: (do re mi)

[personal profile] adoube 2016-02-27 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)


How I find it doesn't matter......... but won't your friend be worried?

perma_banned: (sin of doesn't bathe)

[personal profile] perma_banned 2016-02-27 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
You already argued semantics.

I was just surprised is all~. You don't seem the sorta guy to have regrets. [None were spoken, but Ban made his assumptions.]
selfimage: — ɢᴀʀʙᴇᴛᴛ — (Always crashing the same car.)

[personal profile] selfimage 2016-02-27 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ THAT'S NOT THE POINT. he's thrown apology parties, he knows. ]

As it's understood: I don't want a free one. That defeats the purpose of an apology drink.
selfimage: — ɢᴀʀʙᴇᴛᴛ — (Kingdom come.)

[personal profile] selfimage 2016-02-27 09:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Less a matter of space and moreso of time. We've another mission soon, I'm sure I can manage to find something that suits my tastes there.
perma_banned: (good lord)

[personal profile] perma_banned 2016-02-27 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
And, what a freak of nature you are--actually admitting it~.
adoube: (Default)

[personal profile] adoube 2016-02-27 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)


How many people did you hurt, Weavykins?

adoube: (how much I love you)

[personal profile] adoube 2016-02-27 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)


Just count until you're bored.............

selfimage: — ɢᴀʀʙᴇᴛᴛ — (Maggie's farm.)

[personal profile] selfimage 2016-02-27 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Lucky duck I am—I don't have to concern myself over it.

[ there's a pause, and he looks curious. ]

There were those within the Ten Realms cursed as you are. Not elves, but a Valkyrior.

[ and Loki had used them at the time, passed them off to another incarnation that found a way to free them. that brings back a few painful memories. ]
perma_banned: (psst elaine goes commando)

[personal profile] perma_banned 2016-02-27 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
People keep their crimes to themselves as long as they can.

Admitting to the truth is something people don't do. It's one thing if a whole lot of people see it and know it and it's another to let the sins come out of your own mouth.

It just isn't done~--admitting you're wrong or what you've done was wrong~.
originallutece: can you not hemorrhage for like ten minutes (neutral; ugh more blood)

[personal profile] originallutece 2016-02-27 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorry-- because you haven't found it, it must not exist? That's hardly logical.

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