[ it’s confusing, even weeks away from the situation to find clarity in it all. she had turned her back on her people, unable to stand looking at them after what she had done to keep them safe. marched out into the forest, foliage turning to hard wood in less than a blink. in looking for an escape, arrived in anwick. then here.
she can pinpoint the wrongs she’s committed, things she should have done differently. if there’s anything she is certain about, it’s the fact she isn’t innocent. ]
is anyone? innocent. people do what they have to, to survive. should they be blamed for that?
[ it’s in opposition to what she said before, but her thoughts now are in part characterized by conflict. someone said to her once ‘who we are, and who we need to be to survive are very different things’ and another later ‘maybe this is who we are now’.
she doesn’t know what to think. ]
that’s good. we don’t need one of us disappearing as well. it’s not that i trust them, i don’t not with anything other than this. i don’t think they’ve earned that.
we haven’t earned their trust either, especially with what happened in the square.
[ with the number of them that participated in the fight, either willingly or dragged into it. the result is the same. ]
i guess we’ll have to see.
[ if she runs into any of the native children, later. ]
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she can pinpoint the wrongs she’s committed, things she should have done differently. if there’s anything she is certain about, it’s the fact she isn’t innocent. ]
is anyone? innocent. people do what they have to, to survive. should they be blamed for that?
[ it’s in opposition to what she said before, but her thoughts now are in part characterized by conflict. someone said to her once ‘who we are, and who we need to be to survive are very different things’ and another later ‘maybe this is who we are now’.
she doesn’t know what to think. ]
that’s good. we don’t need one of us disappearing as well. it’s not that i trust them, i don’t not with anything other than this. i don’t think they’ve earned that.
we haven’t earned their trust either, especially with what happened in the square.
[ with the number of them that participated in the fight, either willingly or dragged into it. the result is the same. ]
i guess we’ll have to see.
[ if she runs into any of the native children, later. ]