[Don't tell him what references to make, okay. He can make all the references he wants, when he wants to.]

You're right. It shouldn't be easy.

[But privately, he thinks: sometimes it is. There are plenty of shoulds in the world, and ideally everyone would be able to partake of them. But he doesn't. He's never felt guilt about killing the people who deserved it, in the worst ways he could imagine.]

It would be oversimplifying to say that all right choices are difficult ones. But more often than not, I think that they are. Especially in this case . . . it's complicated, isn't it, to explain to someone who's never been there what it's like to give up control entirely.