--no, that's not true. he appreciates it in a sense, the fact that she goes out of her way to treat him with respect. it's nice to know someone here gives a shit about him, but it also sucks, because he's not sure he wants her to. he's not sure he wants to care about anyone on this team, because it'd be easier to be out for himself. it'd be easier not to let himself be the person he is as an Enforcer for the MWPSB, for the division that's become the closest thing he'll ever have to family.
He hates the idea that he might never see them again, and he hates the idea that he doesn't want to go back any more than he wants to stay. He hates the fact that he knows he'd be happy in ALASTAIR if they were here with him, for all he's open about not trusting the organization.
Kagari couldn't describe it if he were asked to, but the reciprocity expected from the kind of offer Reika just made feels a little bit like a betrayal, and it's with reluctance that he finally replies:]
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--no, that's not true. he appreciates it in a sense, the fact that she goes out of her way to treat him with respect. it's nice to know someone here gives a shit about him, but it also sucks, because he's not sure he wants her to. he's not sure he wants to care about anyone on this team, because it'd be easier to be out for himself. it'd be easier not to let himself be the person he is as an Enforcer for the MWPSB, for the division that's become the closest thing he'll ever have to family.
He hates the idea that he might never see them again, and he hates the idea that he doesn't want to go back any more than he wants to stay. He hates the fact that he knows he'd be happy in ALASTAIR if they were here with him, for all he's open about not trusting the organization.
Kagari couldn't describe it if he were asked to, but the reciprocity expected from the kind of offer Reika just made feels a little bit like a betrayal, and it's with reluctance that he finally replies:]
thanks
you too