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[servant]

[It's the first time that Merlin's broadcasted a video of his own, normally content to just poke his nose into others. He's sitting at a table, chin propped up on his fist, the universal pose of Deep Thought.]

I've been thinking a lot lately. [And that would be the point where Arthur would inevitably have something to say about that. It feels...odd, being able to continue without interruption. And not in an entirely good way.] About the humans and the goblins, but mostly about those who found themselves caught in-between. It's difficult, living your life in secret, wondering where you fit in, if you fit in at all.

[He's getting that wounded bear face again, a long expression with sad round eyes.]

I'm not trying to excuse anything terrible that's been done. By anyone. I was only wondering if anyone else knows what it's like to feel like an outcast.

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[grunehexe]

You've seen a troll?

[She's torn on how to answer, that much is obvious.]

It is...not as good as I'd dreamed it would be, but. That was naive of me.

[digophelia]

[ Aside from Merlin's youth, Alice is surprised by his modesty. ]

Significantly so. Oxford is cleaner and brighter than London.

[perma_banned]

[It was reassuring, though Ban wasn't happy about it. The fact that he wasn't alone in his loneliness was depressing to hear.]

I think that'd be the saddest thing I've ever heard~.

[So, he remembered Merlin's promise.]

Got anything to do about it?

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[ninmu]

[ oh, he knows this one!! Melan blinks, seeming to realize something. ]

Oh. Do you have a kagune?

[ good attempt. ]

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[servant]

No, it isn't.

[And because he can't keep his curiosity in check:]

Has anyone ever made you feel that way?

[servant]

When you say doing away with...you mean they were killed.

[Merlin's quite uncomfortable to that idea, for reasons.]

I don't think I would make for a good champion, but I can support someone who would be. I'd rather put my skills to use there.

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[viscontree]

Yes, it started when I was just a young boy. [Talking about his childhood...that's a first. Merlin asked though.]

My relatives refused to deal with me in any from. I was beginning to think that I was more like a monster rather than a person. After all, monsters have no place within society. Wouldn't you agree?

[After that he was taken into an orphanage but, it happened so long ago. ]

[sanicspeed]

Obviously. Everyone can read everything here. That'd be a pretty bad idea.

[servant]

What do you mean? And what's a resume?

[Because he asks the hard-hitting questions. You don't really have to humor him, Loki.]

[servant]

[Oh, but it explains so much, at least to Merlin.]

It certainly made life a lot harder than it should've been for me and my mother. My father too. We weren't given much of a choice either - well, we could choose a hard life or death, if that's a choice.

[bougy]

( her eyes widen slightly at the realisation that he's that kind of an outcast. if their situations aren't the same, they're at least similar. )

You and your mother are the apostates? ( a small pause after such a personal question, considering. ) Not much of one, I think it's fair to say. Though there are some fates worse than death and all that. ...So, do they just exterminate mages, like so many troublesome pests?

[servant]

[It saddens him that he doesn't have to ask why: why they'd run and scream, or why they'd try to eradicate him, whether or not he'd done anything. He looks different, he is different, and the sad truth is that for too many people, that would be enough.]

No one deserves that.

[servant]

The king was married to one for a short time.

[Merlin tries not to smile too much. It was less funny at the time, but now...Uther kissed a troll and he almost feels sorry for the troll.]

I'm sorry. I wish the world were better and showed you only amazing things.

[servant]

Why did you leave it and go to London?

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[servant]

I'm not sure. What's a kagune?

[servant]

I think there's a way you can communicate one on one. Actually, there's more than one way, if you count meeting in person. I meant with these devices. They make things so handy, don't you think?

[selfimage]

There's a pattern between here and Anwick, and it comes with a capital "A."

[ there's a dramatic pause, and the he clarifies. ]

For apocalypse.

You don't think they'd just send us here for a conflict between sides, do you? Even the sun thing is reaching. There's better things to be done if you want to save the multiverse. This is small bananas.

Except it's not, is it? Take a look outside the scope of our mission.

[digophelia]

It wasn't my choice to leave it.

[ A mistake, but an understandable, all too common mistake. ]

I found myself in London after my family passed away.

[sunderings]

[ Killed, yes, Sion's silence is damning enough, though he is not regretful for it. He only shakes his head, unfaltering: ]

Brave and cunning. [ Though others might yet call Merlin meek for choosing such a path, even if it had been selected wisely. ] You know your abilities, then, and your place in the world. What's more, you would make good use of them both.

It is a difficult burden to bear, leading. Championing a cause. And I feel that there will be a time when we must help to raise such a person from the shadows, a hero of Chantes, not only for the sake of the Order, but for goblins and humans all.

But ah, where to look is the question, is it not? The human King is foolish, and the brothers of the Order are no better, so do we turn our eyes to the goblins, then? Or set our sights somewhere else entirely?

[ Color him curious to hear Merlin's answer. ]

[invisiblade]

That may well be the case, but were it not fear instilled into them, then some other human emotion would take it's place. Be it jealousy, hatred, or admiration. Those of us who are different will always be set apart from the rest in one way or another.

[magical powers, race, appearance.... these sorts of things will always be a dividing factor among living things.]

Perhaps you have more of an open mind because you, yourself, are different. As someone who considers himself an outcast, you do not let such things influence your opinion of others.

[grunehexe]

Was the troll under some sort of... glamour spell?

[Otherwise good lord, how did that happen?]

- the outside world is a terrifying place. That's what I was always told. I suppose it's just... somewhere in between.

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[hsalf]

I think there isn't anyone alive who hasn't felt excluded or outcasted at least once in their life. Often for the silliest of reasons. It's a painful feeling.

[kamiizumi]

It is what it is. Ninja live in the shadows, we just have a few more reasons to stay there.

[dailydouble]

Why can't we? Minds are difficult to change, but something must be attempted.

[ Unless they leave things as they are, but Ahad doesn't think this group will be willing to do that. ]

[servant]

Ninja? I thought you were a mutant.

[Who just happens to look like a turtle. Possibly young, it's hard to tell.]