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[daimeinashi]

[Sai hasn't entirely worked out how to use this whole magic jewelry network thing yet, but the thought-typing is relatively straightforward enough. So:]

is it truly wise to be rescuing the qorral ?
should a significant number of them perish, it will be far easier to complete our secondary mission of stopping the mining efforts

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[gunah]

It must be so easy to be nothing but a sword, never needing to know right from wrong.

[ If she could make a text message sound terse, she would. But then the guilt hits her. Maybe he doesn't understand, that maybe his lack of perceived choices is something to be pitied rather than scorned. ]

I believe... You and I are once dust and we will become dust given time, but the choices we make reverberate. Whether we choose to turn our faces away or to rush in and help, those choices are what makes us who we are.

If you have never had to choose, then you have never lived your life.

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[daimeinashi]

[She's right, though. In a sense. Before, he had no basis for comparison, because he didn't live. But it's true--attempting to live is difficult. He doesn't know how. He was never given the tools.]

you are correct
i was never meant to exist

[That he should attempt to do so at all is in contradiction with all of his training. Danzou has realized it himself, he's sure, what with the warning he was given about emotions when he asked permission to keep the name "Sai" and remain with his team a bit longer.]

no worries!! :>

[gunah]

[ That's not the response she expected at all, when she was already gearing up for some kind of rebuttal. It makes her regret feeling any anger toward him. ]

Why do you say that?

[daimeinashi]

"you have no name, no feelings, no past, no future. there is only the mission"

that is how we are trained in root

[gunah]

What was the mission?

[daimeinashi]

no, you do not understand
there was not one singular mission
there were many
but each particular mission was to be the sum totality of our existence
we lived and died in the biological sense, but we were not to see ourselves as alive, as individuals
each mission was a self-contained existence, to be discarded upon completion
even the name "sai" was meant to be an identifier of convenience for a singular mission

[But then Naruto happened, and he's a bit attached to it, now.]

[gunah]

[ She thinks she understands how it feels to be just a tool used by someone else for their own agenda, and it's hard for her to admit that his situation is that much worse. How does it feel to be denied an identity? ]

And in your duty to ALASTAIR, you would forsake all for the sake of the mission. Is that so?

[daimeinashi]

[He doesn't feel much of anything about it, honestly, but perhaps that is to be expected from a child brainwashed into believing that he truly did not exist as an individual person. He has no regrets about the life he's led, at the very least.]

my loyalty is to konoha
i will do whatever is required to return
at the moment, making myself useful to ALISTAIR is my best option for doing so

[gunah]

In that matter then, we aren't so different.

I would do anything for my home, whatever they ask of me, even if it means never returning.

[daimeinashi]

yes
i would as well, without question

[Though there has been one recent exception: when he didn't follow through on orders to kill Sasuke and indeed committed to helping Naruto retrieve him, in order to attempt to understand bonds. But what would he do if Sasuke directly threatened the village in a more immediate way than allying with an enemy? He is pretty sure he would not hesitate, should the order come directly from the Hokage. It's something that may yet trouble him in the future, as he learns to be more aware of himself.]