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[fateality]

All right so great job, Uncle Fate is very proud of you all.

So let's celebrate
I have way, way too many drinks leftover from my careful hoarding.
You are definitely invited to have one

Hell I've even gotten a head start

And for those of you who don't like or can't have alcohol I have this
Is this juice? It's blue raspberry. Whatever that is. It's probably drinkable.

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[fateality]

Just tryin' to wind down.

[If there's anything wrong, he certainly isn't going to make it apparent.]

That doesn't mean folk won't be thinkin' of the people they care about. It was lookin' a bit grim for awhile there for everyone; I'm glad it worked out in the end, but it was a little rough.

[assent]

I see. That is a relief, then.

[ Though she wouldn't be surprised if it were the case, this mission has been Tough on the heart. ]

Yes, we did quite well. Although it would have preferable to finish sooner... at least we managed.

[fateality]

[He takes a moment to sip his wine.]

Well, let's just hope the next mission is easygoing.

So tell me, really. How you're doing.

[assent]

[ She finally reaches for her own glass, swirling the liquid slightly. ]

Both the missions I have been part of have not been easygoing. I am not even sure what an easygoing mission would be like.

[ She looks a bit sheepish. ]

Though I... if I am honest? Other than relieved, I am actually quite pleased. Perhaps it is selfish to think that way, but... at least here things will be able to recover.

[ Her home world on the other hand... who knows?? ]

[fateality]

Apparently the one before Perdition's Rest was the bunch of 'em taking care of alien babies and escortin' them across the region. Sounds like a vacation in comparison to this mess, if y'ask me.

[He smiles crookedly.]

Why would it be selfish thinkin' that way?

[assent]

The Squidges, yes? I remember from the park back in Oska - Peter explained a little about them to me as I helped him take care of some. That... does sound a much simpler kind of mission.

[ Though hm. She doesn't really know how to describe it, but... ]

It would be selfish because... my motives for aiding the cause were not so simple as wanting to aid others. I had hoped that I could do that too, yes... but it is more that after what I have done before, perhaps I was not convined I should be given the chance to.

[fateality]

Well, I didn't necessarily say simpler. Maybe stressful in a different way, but it still sounds like it's less life-or-death in comparison to all this Zymandis nonsense.

[Twisted Fate shakes his head.]

...Listen, sunflower. When you get down to it, everyone's got a bit of a selfish motive in aidin' others. I know I'm far from it. But even if it's a selfish motive, it's what you do that should count, yeah?

ugh typo before... *convinced

[assent]

That may depend on the person. [ She smiles at him. ] There are some in our team who would probably excel at something like that -- caring for another.

[ She imagines people like Olivia or Haise probably did very well with it. ]

Though... I am aware of that as well, I just. I suppose I am starting to realise that doing what I feel is right only to make myself feel better about what I did is not the best reason for it. I... would like to work on that.

[ So she can just do it without thinking about the outcome, because maybe in that instance she will actually be free of her own restraints on herself, so to speak.

#growth ]

[fateality]

Yeah, that's fair enough.

[Koltira probably did not do particularly well, for example.]

...Hmm. I don't think I'm the best person to remark much further on that, then.

[Almost all of his actions are personally motivated, all selfish. Something he knows about himself. He doesn't know that he really wants to change that about himself.]

[assent]

[ She imagines Koltira probably struggled a lot... poor guy. ]

We... do come from very different backgrounds, that is not necessarily a bad thing either.

[ She takes a sip of her wine, eyes lowering. ]

I was raised to put a Kingdom before myself, after all. To not exist as a person, merely as a Princess. My heart and mind had no place in that kind of situation, so I am only just trying to learn what I want for myself. I admit I do not know much about you in return, but... at least you are aware of what you want for yourself. I think that is very important.

[fateality]

I had parents in my life for 'bout eight years until I had to figure things out for myself. That boils down to thinkin' about me, myself, and I. How I'm gonna live the next day, what am I gonna eat, and what fool I can rob.

[He smiles wryly, then has a drink of wine.]

I can't think in the perspective of royalty, or an honorable knight. The most I can figure right now is that I think about me, an' those I want in my life now. What makes them happy. Maybe not always what's right, but what's good for them. I'm still workin' on the details on that factor.

[assent]

I am... sorry. [ If only because it must be difficult to talk about. Her hand reaches out for his free one, giving it a squeeze. ] It must have been difficult.

It may be strange to think, but before everything happened to me all I wanted was peace. I wanted the wars to end, for poverty to be less problematic. Povery was the reason we had so many gang issues, after all. I had hoped that if we could even that out, then... [ It does, at least, show that she was never a selfish princess. Her parents, on the other hand... may very well have been. ]

Besides, everything is not merely black and white.

[fateality]

...Don't worry about it. It was a long time ago. [If it bothers him, Twisted Fate does his best to not give it away, by smiling down to Sonia and holding her hand.]

No, it really isn't that simple. But you know that.

I don't think you should worry too much about what your motives are. But that's up to you, in the end. For someone like me, it's enough that I care about what I've got, and how to go about it.

[assent]

Maybe so, but these things do not tend to leave us, no matter how much we may bottle them up.

[ She doesn't pry further though, just lets that hang in the air as her eyes flutter. She's surprisingly at peace despite the topic being what it is. ]

I think... I would like to bear that in mind as well, however.

[fateality]

Suppose that's true.

[But he's really good at pretending indefinitely, so he'll get right back to that.]

Yeah? Because that does include you. In case that hasn't been obvious.

[assent]

[ She just stays quiet for a moment, letting that hang in the air. Her eyes stay closed this time, a small yet incredibly warm--happy--smile on her face. ]

I am very glad to hear that. Of course, that also goes both ways.

[fateality]

[The smile he wears is a bit kinder than his usual smug ones.]

I figured as much.

Look, I don't commit to bonds... all that well, but I'm makin' an effort for it. If you need anything, you let me know. Just bear in mind I usually do better if you need something of a five finger discount on an item.

[assent]

Mm. [ She smiles back at him, though that may also be because-- ]

Do not worry, I will not let you do otherwise now that I am aware. [ Ah. ] After all, bonds are quite important... at least those are also lessons I have recently learned. Besides... you came to visit me when things were difficult, did you not? I think you are doing a better job of it than you give yourself credit for.