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[ofobedience]

[Something like this-- it's really not his style. He's more accustomed to keeping his thoughts to himself, to keeping his own council. But bit by incremental bit, things have been changing in him, a slow and gradual unfurling towards greater acceptance of their situation, towards being a part of this team. He's accepted that he'll never see his world again - something that, rightly or wrongly, he believes down to the core of himself - had believed that, despite the hollow rawness it leaves him with, he's made an uneasy kind of peace with this 'knowledge'.

Only, the recent transfers have led to a renewal of his tendency to withdraw, and he's kept to himself since learning that so many of those he'd finally come to consider something akin to friends have now departed for other teams. It stirs up all the old feelings in him, a misplaced sense of betrayal-- more than anything, his own betrayal of himself for allowing these attachments to form. Everyone leaves, in the end-- it's something he should have known.

Still, it means something, perhaps, that he eventually brings his concerns here, rather than allowing them to eat away at him indefinitely. Even if he ends up doing it in a roundabout manner.]

I have some questions, if you will.

Why forge connections with others when they're only going to end up severed? What could you possibly stand to gain from it? Isn't it preferable, ultimately, to keep oneself separate from all that and thereby avoid the messy business of emotional baggage?

Such things surely only weigh one down. Create unnecessary complications. Weaken you.

Comments

[bladefaire]

I have no time for any of those things.

[ what with all the training, you know. ]

[feytality]

because you're training, I get it. but what's the point of being strong if you don't use it for anything?

[bladefaire]

[ .......

it's a minute or so before he replies ]

I have to make up for my past mistakes. Ensure they do not happen again.

[feytality]

[is this character development]

past mistakes?

[bladefaire]

[ mysteryghost.png

But no, actually he's just going to close up again. ]

That's none of your business.

[ UNTIL NEXT TIME.... ]

[feytality]

I get it.

[he tried to make out with a girl and it went horribly wrong --- now he can only make out with swords. MYSTERY SOLVED]

[ok no]

But you shouldn't push yourself too hard. Being strong is great and all, but it'll be really lonely if you don't have anyone around you can share your strength with.

[bladefaire]

[ dammit, he tried to hard to hide that part of his past from her, HOW DID SHE GUESS ]

I'm not worthy of that yet.

[feytality]

[Nothing get past the eagle eyes of Maya Fey, Ace Detective]

How do you know that if you're not willing to try?