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( Peter is clearly on top of something high when he turns the magitek on, magitek that isn't his but anyone who knows him will recognize him, whether his name is paired with the message or not. he hesitates before he starts, but he's hesitated about a week now. he's sort of out of hesitation time. )

I am guessing most of you remember me, but if you don't, my name is Peter. I just... I wanted to apologize. I get that doesn't mean much, considering how many people I hurt and I should have seen it sooner and prevented it in the first place. ( he shrugs, looking down and his shoulders in a weary slant. ) I'm still sorry. If you got caught up in it, or... you know someone that was. Sorry won't make up for it, but I... I'll do whatever it takes to make sure it never happens again.

( it means more honesty than he's ever had on a large scale, and that's the terrifying part of all this. he doesn't see an option in it anymore. ) I'm sorry I didn't talk about... what I can do. It's a long story. ( a long story with dead girlfriends, so no, he doesn't wanna super get into that part. ) I should have said something before it got so bad. It's too late to go back, but maybe I can say something now. If you want to know, I guess I'll try and answer.

( he looks uncomfortable, but hey. it's at least a start. last but not least, though, he sighs and rubs a spot behind his ear. ) If you don't want anything to do with me, after... ( after he went feral and tried to eat people, is the part he's not saying, ) I get it. I'll try and respect it, if I know, too.

( and, last but not least... ) I think we should consider the endgame of the people that were effected by Bristol. There's a lot to deal with after you get the cure, especially those in late stages of infected. ( speaking from experience... cough....... ) If we can get donations together, provide any kind of support for the people that got sick or ... lost someone. If we can I think we should.

( Peter definitely feels like he's talked enough (for prob the second time in his entire life, and coincidentally the first time was just a few days ago, w e i r d), so with that he's done. at least for now. he probably has a mystic samurai coach to keep an eye on, anyway. she might claim to be petersitting but if anyone is at risk of falling off the building, it's not Peter.

because he doesn't fall off of buildings, he jumps off of them completely intentionally. )

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Not as far as I know, either, but I wonder if they'd even mention if they did.

( they might lose a lot of recruits that way, knowing they could just jump off the crazy ride whenever they wanted. )

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I would imagine they'd just chalk it up to a "transfer," but I feel like we would have heard it from our fellow recruits if they decided to stay behind. Of course, none of the worlds I've visited so far have seemed... particularly inhabitable long term besides this one. And outside of the quarantine, it's the same world many of us came from.

Of course you'd have to contend with the bad memories, even if you got far away from this town.

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You'd have to be really sure you wanted to make a go of it in whatever world, too. There's no take-backs once we leave, or I'm pretty sure there's not.

( he'd never be able to agree to it, frankly, even if Aunt May weren't back home waiting for him... just for the risk he'd change his mind and be trapped somewhere he wasn't meant to be. )

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As I understand it, there are plenty here who might not even want to return home, so anything could be preferable. I always feel the worst for those ones.

[not the least of which because he's been exiled from his own home for over a century. he'd never go back if he had the chance, because the pain is too raw, but he still has feelings for where he came from.]

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I guess so, but maybe if things are so bad back home, this is an opportunity to get somewhere better.

( it's not an option he can consider, no matter how much he likes traveling and the idea of helping people.

he's gotta get home, sooner or later. )